Don’t you know me by now?
Don’t you know how I feel about you?
Don’t you see?
It’s so clear
I can’t deny this feeling
This one true feeling
I ask him, “Are you true?”
And he tells me, “Yes, I am the one.”
I feel weird telling you this
But I love you
Do I have the right?
Probably not
But if I don’t tell you I will die
Much like I have been doing for so long
I want to split myself open and pour myself out
Rid myself of these trapped emotions
They have no where to go
And I have no where else to store them
So, they must come out
And so here I lie
Beside a bedroom light
Listening to mellow sounds
Thinking only of you
And telling myself, “She is not yours to have”
And hearing myself speak, but not really listening
I have so much to give
If only given the chance
But am so afraid
Afraid of what might happen
Afraid of the response back
But… A chance not worth taking is a chance lost somewhere between reality and dreams
I can’t have what I, myself, can’t give
And that is me
And that is all