Yeah, I met this girl
And all of a sudden it starts again
You know, the doubts, the worries, the fears
How do I look?
Like it mattered before
Do I have to watch what I say, what I do, what I think?
How do I feel now?
Man, I am so unsure of myself
the confidence I once had is nothing but a facade forced in front of uncertainty
The border line of love
What a burden
Now I have to talk on the phone
Now I have to think of something to say
Am I funny enough?
What is she thinking about me?
Who cares!
Analyzing every word looking for that one glimpse
that she likes me, that she’s thinking about me, that she at least recognizes my existence (individual)
And you know what else – the future starts to enter my mind
Something I could care less about before is suddenly so important
How come I never thought about this before?
How come?
Could I support her if it came down to it?
Please, probably not
Maybe, who knows
I obviously don’t
All of a sudden I start to self doubt myself
second guess, question my brainless actions
Like someone is watching me for real, paying attention to what I am doing
Listening to me, hearing me, following my abstract thoughts and saying, “Yeah, that’s neat”
No, it isn’t, she’s just saying that while at the same time she goes home and says to herself,
“Wow, that kid is really weird”
Yes, I am, so what
Can’t lie when your face to face with the truth, the truth always wins
Always
Yeah, I met this girl and I begin to wonder
Why?