I’m watching as my tired eyes roll to the depths of my swollen head
As my heart stops, blood stops, breathing stops, life stops
I begin to fall – looking up at the clear, black sky
following me, watching me with effervescent eyes
Laughing eyes, sad eyes, crying with cold, salty rain
It falls on my peeling, dry, sun parched skin – revitalizing with each drop
With each drop comes new life
But it’s too late for me, too hot, too…
whatever
I can’t bear to watch anymore
As I tear the picture out of my mind
pictures of love, hate, remorse, pain, jealousy
Ahh, jealousy. How it creeps up on me like a cat about to pounce on its prey
It never ends you know, jealousy
it keeps coming like a fighter too dumb to know when to take a dive
Well I’m not, I’m out of the game
I’m taking my last hit on life
As I reach for my pen, clenching with such fierce pain – the agony
sweet agony
I have killed the beast by doing the same to myself
I’m watching as my tired eyes roll to the depths of my swollen head
never to see life again