I know it shouldn\u2019t bother me
\nI know I am a good dad, a good father, a good role model
\nI know it shouldn\u2019t bother me
\nBut it does
\nI am depressed more now than I ever was
\nI am sad, disappointed
\nI know it shouldn\u2019t bother me
\nBut it does
\nDo I even bother to ask why, how, when did this happen
\nFor what reason? I already know the answers
\nMaybe it is my fault
\nMaybe I wasn\u2019t around enough
\nMaybe I wasn\u2019t there when she needed me most
\nI know it shouldn’t bother me
\nBut it does
\nI am sorry if I have done something
\nThat you don\u2019t necessarily care for
\nI apologize for trying to give you a better life
\nThere are so many things that I want to tell you
\nBut I can\u2019t
\nYou wouldn’t understand, as much as your mom thinks you will
\nYou won\u2019t
\nYou can\u2019t
\nYou just don\u2019t have enough life experience to understand
\nSo I hold it in, and that is dangerous
\nBecause it comes out, but in negative ways
\nI know it shouldn\u2019t bother me
\nBut it does
\nOur relationship is fragile
\nAnd I don\u2019t know how to make it stronger
\nI often heard just being there is half the battle
\nWell, I was there, I am here, and I am still losing
\nThe battle
\nI am told she will understand someday
\nI don\u2019t know if she will
\nMaybe when she has kids of her own
\nI pray that she does not ever have to go through
\nWhat she is putting me through right now
\nI know it shouldn\u2019t bother me
\nBut it does
\nI am sad
\nI am tired
\nI am just a shell of myself
\nIf it ever gets to the point where it doesn\u2019t bother me
\nThan I will know it is truly over, what we have, had, whatever this is
\nIt bothers me
\nIt does<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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