{"id":377,"date":"2011-05-13T16:23:57","date_gmt":"2011-05-13T16:23:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogs.syr.edu\/inner_poet\/?page_id=377"},"modified":"2011-05-13T16:23:57","modified_gmt":"2011-05-13T16:23:57","slug":"if-it-wasnt-for-this","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/jlfouts.expressions.syr.edu\/inner_poet\/weird\/if-it-wasnt-for-this\/","title":{"rendered":"If it wasn&#8217;t for this&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>If it wasn&#8217;t for this<br \/>\nconstant confusion of want<br \/>\nI could walk away from this<br \/>\nconstant knowing of need<br \/>\nIf it wasn&#8217;t for this<br \/>\neverlasting fear to fail<br \/>\nI could stand up tall<br \/>\nand out to sea I would sail<br \/>\nFree, free to be me<br \/>\nWith no one to ever say<br \/>\nWhy I didn&#8217;t make it<br \/>\nWhy I always took the easy way out<br \/>\nIf it wasn&#8217;t for this<br \/>\ninternal screaming of emotions<br \/>\nIf it wasn&#8217;t for this<br \/>\nMaybe I could give more devotion<br \/>\nto myself and to myself<br \/>\nI may ask for more<br \/>\nBut if I really sat down to think<br \/>\nWhat do I need more love for?<br \/>\nIf it wasn&#8217;t for this<br \/>\nI probably wouldn&#8217;t survive<br \/>\nIf it wasn&#8217;t for making love<br \/>\nI would surely want to die<br \/>\nIf it wasn&#8217;t for this<br \/>\nI could get along much better<br \/>\nI could travel faster<br \/>\nSex? Just let her<br \/>\nIf it wasn&#8217;t for this<br \/>\nmy conscience could say<br \/>\nstealing someone&#8217;s heart<br \/>\nis not the only way, okay? Go away!<br \/>\nIf it wasn&#8217;t for this<br \/>\nI could say, &#8220;Fuck you&#8221;<br \/>\nstop lying to me<br \/>\nfucking is all you know how to do<br \/>\nIf it wasn&#8217;t for this<br \/>\nstop badgering me<br \/>\nIf it wasn&#8217;t for this<br \/>\nI want my eyes back &#8211; SEE<br \/>\nStop it<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>If it wasn&#8217;t for this constant confusion of want I could walk away from this constant knowing of need If it wasn&#8217;t for this everlasting fear to fail I could stand up tall and out to sea I would sail &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/jlfouts.expressions.syr.edu\/inner_poet\/weird\/if-it-wasnt-for-this\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":116,"featured_media":0,"parent":178,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jlfouts.expressions.syr.edu\/inner_poet\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/377"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jlfouts.expressions.syr.edu\/inner_poet\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jlfouts.expressions.syr.edu\/inner_poet\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jlfouts.expressions.syr.edu\/inner_poet\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/116"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jlfouts.expressions.syr.edu\/inner_poet\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=377"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/jlfouts.expressions.syr.edu\/inner_poet\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/377\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":378,"href":"https:\/\/jlfouts.expressions.syr.edu\/inner_poet\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/377\/revisions\/378"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jlfouts.expressions.syr.edu\/inner_poet\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/178"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jlfouts.expressions.syr.edu\/inner_poet\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=377"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}